Ni'Srilan: The Desert: And with you, I shall fall

Said they wanted change
I hope that
You remain the same
To show that
This is not a game
Lets end this tragedy today.

But what he could not notice was her standing in the shadows. Tears caressed her cheek as she watched her one and only love die. She could not save him, her body would not allow her and it hurt deep down in her soul. Part of it belonged to him and many parts to her children, it was just that. Her life was not the only thing suffering; she would soon be completely alone with a bastard’s child. Eyes wandered instinctively towards her barrel, showing an instant reaction towards a pregnant mare, again. Why did it always have to happen to her? She soon forgot. Eyes moved back to Strandwolf’s body, wanted it to miraculously move but it didn’t. She could hear his heartbeat, it danced with hers until it skipped now and then. She could hear his thoughts and soon enough, could not linger any longer. She needed him.

You can’t leave me Strandwolf! I need you, please don’t. Her mind was fixated, she was nervous, anxious and would soon fade within the darkness when the others arrived. She could not be seen like this, they would tell her that she was a betrayer, a deserter and judge her all over again. No, she could not do anything towards it because she probably was. Getting raped by another horse while being pissed so she would enjoy it? What a fool she had been! Ears flicked and she felt how his lighting surged and vanished, probably in search for his child that he loved so much. She didn’t care anymore, she just wanted to know that he was alive that was all. Why couldn’t her wish be fulfilled? Why did she have to stay here watching him die only to know that her own life would become shattered?

The mare stepped forward slowly. Stumbling in her steps and snorted while grunting, tears were still shedding and fading in after life because of her fire. She would burn him herself, if she was allowed to by the others. She just had to use Ignifer so no one would notice the shape of her swollen barrel neither the scars from the struggle. Lips touched the caramel dun’s lifeless body; she already knew that he would die young. Her children could hate her all she wanted; she would not let them see his lifeless body, no chance. Eyes wandered to the desert and she knew the Queen could hear her. Hypatia, I have gotten one last request even if I do not deserve it. Let me cremate him after the others have found him. He belongs to the sand and I don’t want anyone else to do it. The winds carried her voice over the desert and soon enough her eyes drew towards him again. She couldn’t look at him, almost; he looked so peaceful without any pain or smile, just…peaceful. Her lips carried the wind and somehow she hoped his soul would hear it before it faded completely.

Good bye my love, I am sorry for all the sorrow I pained you through. But truly know this my angel, I love you of all my heart, and I can swear, I will not fall in love again. The flame maiden vanished from the desert but she was still there, lingering in the shadows awaiting the rest. Her flames would protect the body if Baraqel got the idea to do it herself but she would not face anyone, not yet. Not…ever. Goodbye, Vipers.

OOC: She has not left Ni! I promise, she’ll just wander until she’s ready to face everyone again^_^’

Said they wanted change
I hope that
You remain the same
To show that
This is not a game
Lets end this tragedy today.

FIRE III
KAJIKOMORIUTA & Ignifer
S E E R
HEALER
S T R A N D W O L F
VIRI